Monday, February 7, 2011

Hell

For the past two weeks I've been in calorie counting hell. Actually maybe it's not calorie counting hell, maybe it's carbohydrate hell, or just over eating hell. Whatever it is it's hell.


I have started working out two times a day. Maybe my body is needing the extra energy. Either way I feel like the combination of working graveyards, physical activity, lack of sleep, and increased eating has made me feel rather... poopy.

I'm not giving up the two a days. I enjoy the work outs way too much. I'm open to the possibility that my body needs extra energy, so I'll re-look at my calories/eating habits.

I've never been this close to a "goal weight" before. My fear is that I may be sabotaging myself. So, that put out there, I can let go of that fear and remind myself of what my goals are, refocus and recommit.

I bought some new pants at Walmart (yes, Walmart, I'd rather shop elsewhere, but when jeans are only $12 and your on a fixed income you can't beat what they have to offer) I took size 8 and size 6 into the fitting room with me, totally expecting that the 6 would not zip or button. They did both! They're not too tight either. I do have a muffin top, but I have a muffin top in my size 10's and my size 12's that fall off. Why? Because I have all this excess skin I gotta get rid of. I'll take it though. I'd rather have the skin all loose and charpei looking than full and round and ... yeah, you get the picture. I'm confident that the work outs will tone some of this up, and eventually if needed I'll have the money to get a new belly... and some boobs. I used to have fairly nice ones... now I just have the bags they came in. Oh well. :) I really hope you're laughing right now.

Bring on a new week. I'm ready!
 
Much love,
Alisha xoxoxo

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Caffeine!

Only 8 more graveyard shifts to go! Can I get a halleluja! Last night was bad, as far as the things I put into my body, and it continued into the day.

On my way to work I knew I was in trouble, I was tired already. I stopped at my favorite late night conveniece store and bought the entire pot of freshly brewed dark roast coffee. That was sign number two.

Strike three came around halfway through the night when I found that little voice in the back of my head whispering "it's ok, just close your eyes, you'll still hear the phone, and the radio". NO! I jumped out of my chair and headed for the Rockstar Recovery I had in the fridge from a previous night.

All that caffeine gave me a little bit of a tummy ache. When I got off work I found myself craving carbs, couldn't get enough of them. I ate granola, a slice of pear cake, a piece of home made wheat bread with honey, all before I even realized what I was doing.

Then my tummy REALLY ached. In fact, even now, nearly 24 hours later I can still feel it. Maybe that's because when I got to work tonight my co worker had made some delicious ham and pasta salad, as well as sweet and salty chex mix. I figured I'd had such a horrible eating day already what the heck. I had some of both.

Needless to say my daily caloric intake is nearly double what I've been having.

So what's the good news? I now know what just over 2000 calories of almost all carbohydrates and fats really feels like. It doesn't feel good. Instead of beating myself up about it, I'm just recommitting to my healthy lifestyle, now, in this moment. I have a refrigerator clear full of delicious fruits and veggies that I got from my bountiful basket yesterday. I'm excited to create something with all of that fresh produce!

Have a beautiful day, and thanks for reading.

Much love,
Alisha xoxoxo

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Word Press Web Spinner

Or something like it...

I recently created a WordPress website for Runnin' For Heroes. This is a 5k run we are hosting here in Sevier county. It's a charity event with the proceeds of the race going to Pennies For Heroes.

I realize that the set up with WordPress is pretty simple, but I celebrate the fact that I was able to do it, complete with a plug in for registering and paying for the event.

I'm excited for this race because not only does it give us the opportunity to give back to our fallen heroes, it also provides a way to recognize the every day heroes in our lives. The brave men and women who vow to keep our communities safe, who put themselves in the line of danger every day in order to ensure that safety. It is also an opportunity for Police, Fire, and EMS to network with each other, building lasting relationships and friendships.

I never expected I'd be involved in something like this, but I am very, very grateful that I am.

Much love,
Alisha
xoxoxo